it's life

No pain, no gain..
yup, kata mutiara yang emang bisa merangkum inti dari hidup ini "usaha,usaha, dan terus usaha".
papa pernah bilang "usaha sekeras-kerasnya seperti gak akan ada yang bisa nolong kita selain lewat usaha kita sendiri, tapi ketika berdoa juga minta sekeras-kerasnya sama Allah seperti gak akan ada lagi yang bisa nolong kita selain Allah lewat doa itu"
Agama juga ngajarin kalo manusia mau selamat didunia dan akherat kuncinya cuma ikhtiar dan tawakal

lets talk about ikhtiar..
ikhtiar artinya berusaha sekeras-kerasnya, mengupayakan semua tenaga dan kemampuan yang kita punya demi mencapai suatu tujuan akhir.
berusaha, adalah sesuatu yang gak pernah putus gw lakukan. demi apa? tujuan akhir macam apa?tujuan akhirnya siapa?
terkadang gw ngerasa sangat lelah kejar-kejaran dengan banyak tuntutan dan target. harus begini, abis itu harus begitu, dll. ya, memang gw juga membutukan semua hasil pencapaian itu, buat apa kalo orang tanya: semua hanya demi sebuah pembuktian, bahwa gw "somebody" dan mungkin sebagai bentuk kompensasi atas beberapa kondisi yang tidak bisa gw penuhi di sisi lain.

i spend more of my time at night to fill my empty head. so, i can live my day as the smart one, the reliable person. but in fact, i am not.

how about tawakal..
gw akui gw kurang mendekatkan diri sama Allah, sehingga gw sering kali keilangan pegangan kalo ngadepin masalah. teriak dan nangis sendiri ternyata gak se-lega kalo dilakukan sambil sujud dan ngadu sama Allah. dan memang pada akhirnya semua masalah gw akan dibantu terselesaikan hanya oleh-Nya.

jangan kebanyakan ngeluh kalo gw udah usaha terus, mungkin sebenernya usaha gw belum cukup keras, masih banyak menyianyiakan waktu untuk hal-hal tidak esensial. banyak melupakan peranan Tuhan, lupa bersyukur.

now i'am 21, almost 22. terlalu tua untuk masih cengeng sama hidup. Hidup selanjutnya masih lebih keras dari yang sekarang gw jalanin.

"...Happiness is at times a blessing – but usually it’s a conquest. The magic instant helps us to change, drives us forward to seek our dreams. We shall suffer and go through quite a few difficult moments and face many a disappointment – but this is all transitory and inevitable, and eventually we shall feel proud of the marks left behind by the obstacles. In the future we will be able to look back with pride and faith.

Poor are those who are afraid of running risks. Because maybe they are never disappointed, never disillusioned, never suffer like those who have a dream to pursue. But when they look back – for we always look back – they will hear their heart saying: “What did you do with the miracles that God sowed for your days? What did you do with the talent that your Master entrusted to you? You buried it deep in a grave because you were afraid to lose it. So this is your inheritance: the certainty that you have wasted your life.”
(paulo coelho, by the river piedra i sat down and wept)

the new happiness

for almost 4 years he is my best friend
he had his own life
i had my own life
and this situation still same until now, nothing changes

then, in the beginning of 2010
we have a new life that we enjoy together
less of long-term expectations, easy to live, but could give us long lasting happiness not just an infatuation of heart beat.

beside our own life, i never knew before that it could be happy if we have a life(another life) where there is a person who cares, tries to comfort you, and asks you to do something stupid but he still tells you that is funny and nice.



bestfriend in 2006..


bestfriend in 2007..


Bestfriend in 2009..



then, we are in 2010..




then, i could say :
lucky, i am in love with my bestfriend..
*and hope i never read this post someday in the future with regrets

happy new year

It's a New year

with a New Heart

which filled with New Hopes

and wish i have a New Life which full of happiness, success and BIG SMILES..